Dear Diary,
Mood: Apathetic


My life is spiraling downward.
I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert.
It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like "Stab My Heart Because I Love You" and "Rip Apart My Soul" and of course "Stabby Rip Stab Stab".
And It doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band can do.
Some days, you know...

I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be
You'd be non-conforming too if you look just like me
I have paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Cause I feel real deep when dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, most just call me a fag
Our dudes look like chicks and chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

I'm dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister's mascara now I'm grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a hawthorne heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, It's never any fun
They say they already have a pussy, they don't need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

My life is just a black abyss... Ya know.. It's so dark.
And it's suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip, tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans... Which look great on me by the way.

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped gives me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me "Catcher In the Rye" and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said that I like girls I'd only be half right

I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw xbox I play old school Nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

My parents don't get me, ya know..
They think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy.. Well, a couple guys.. But still, I mean, it's the 2000's, can't 2 or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay.
I mean, chicks dig that kinda thing anyways.
I don't know diary, sometimes I think you are the only one that gets me.. You're my best friend.
I feel like tacos.