I can sit here thinking about mistakes I've made Why it's almost 5 am and I can't just close my eyes And drift away to where everything will be ok There's no place in my mind where I control my destiny
It's so cold, so warm my body can't decide I'd be lying if I missed the feeling what its like to be inside In a few more hours I will shower and I'll think How could I fuck things up more and my brain is out of sync
One more hour, my heart is feeling sour but I can't express the taste Of the shit that fills my head singing "I wish that I was dead" And the time I spend awake is the time that I can't waste
I'm running out of gas Still going nowhere fast I need to kick my ass so I can make it past Another hurdle in the race. Tell me it's not okay So I don't fall back to old ways The shit needs to stop, I know we'll get on top And get out of this place
Home Movies is on laying naked in my bed I'm confused and just a little paranoid Who would have thought without your guidance I would rot And still I take advantage of the hospitality (insert fake apology)
Undeserving of this comfort, of this food thats in my stomach It's no wonder I'm so awkward when I'm walking out in public It's hard to take a stance when you're not wearing any pants And the only thing I've got is some chords that make kids dance
Two more hours, the pain starts to devour and I can't express the taste Of the shit that fills my head screaming "I wish that I was dead" And the time I spend awake is all the time that I can't waste