Ella's from somewhere else
You see her and you know
That you're slipping through the felt
Through the seams of the place and the pain
I feel the pain of it sideways like a kiss, stellar rays

Like a beached whale, spaceship
black hole somewhere orbiting away

Ella takes me to the place
We first met in the cornfield
Not a cornfield, eating snacks
Snakebite sister, mother, sister, I havе lost what I kept

Five years old, fivе years ago, I first loved you
Your eyes like I've known them forever

I've known nothing like I know you
Ella takes me to the flatness of the loss
How the comfort of your touch now
Is a trigger without cause
How trusting, even knowing you is dangerous in my heart

I'm not able to keep constant, to keep on

In the magic, I found wonder, I found fear
In this room now
I still see him standing closer as I scream
Ella takes me in her stillness to the stream
Where you jumped in, fully submerged
And I felt inside a dream
Like I've known you, like you're family, like I'm here

Ella takes me to the place we said goodbye
If I'd known it was the last time, I don't know if I'd cry
Maybe I'd say something about what you mean
How even though we've reconnected
your loss ripped open the seams

Leaving nothing, just a vastness, in between
Now I feel like I am scifi, I am porous, I am mean

I want to go back to our mom's porch and scream
You're my brother, you're my family
you are everything to me
You're my brother, you're my family
you are everything to me

Ella's from somewhere else