Deep in the shell
I've created my whole life
Hiding from the world
That I wanted to be part

It was not just an escape
It's the way that I survived
Struggling to meet others
Struggling to be fine

My fear controlled me
My fear made me stop
My fear got rid
Of the love I've ever got

Pain, anguish, and tears
It's how my days passed by
And after all those years
I still don't know why

Perfect things
Perfect life
There was no reason
There was no sign

The answer was here
The answer was close
The answer was me
The answer was tough

So I decided to write this down
Maybe a way to tell about
It was like I was being drowned
I could fight, but couldn't shout

The help I had from you
Was all I ever need
But still took me sometime
To cauterize the bleed

And now that my wounds
Are all being healed
I will go as far
As far as I can see

Perfect things
Perfect life
There was no reason
There was no sign

I wonder why
Should I survive?
I hope you understand
It's just a waste of time!

I don't know why
Would I survive?
Maybe one day I'll comprehend
I won't say goodbye!

How could I
Manage to survive?
I hope you understand
This confessions of a sad man!