I made a milli', civillians stand up inside pavilions
A villain had taken over, a nigga was busy winnin', I won
And I'm workin' constantly so I can make sure my son
Doesn't have a father sellin' drugs that goes on the run
'Cause that's my destiny, fate had taken the best of me
Rest of me is regrettin' me, but I can see God testin' me
Show me that I was different even though my belligerence
Turned its shoulder to Jesus for benefits and significance
Fuckin' that bitch was nice and I lovеd how she worked the pipе Noticed the lust in life and it's piercing me like a knife
So I doubt I'll step in to Heaven 'cause partying with my brethren had taken all of my time as I almost forgot to mention
A question is what I asked him, sinning was busy flashing and slashing at all my deeds and I never had seen it crashing
Until I got to the gate, and he showed me I'm filled with hate
Then I felt the flames on my skin and I noticed it was too late
If I could smoke fear away
I roll that motherfucker up
And then I take a puff to take my pain away I had to say
I was sorry for the path I walked my way
I felt astray and now I'm begging to him, “Wash my sins away”
I begged and pleaded, freedom I needed
Had me defeated, it exceeded my expectations
Filled with temptation the sensation rooted me deeply
I seen it clearly she was easy knew she was freaky
Then I got greedy for some pussy, nigga it pushed me
You shouldn't blame me 'cause you made me, Jesus you played me
You sit and tell me you gon trade me, supposed to save me
I can't control this life you gave me
Jesus you hating, relations fading
I been forsake, and never patient while calmly waiting
For God to take me, and one day make me hopeful he break me
Like Ebaneezer, he'll see that I didn't need her
And one day I'd prolly leave her, and never would've believed her
A proper cause, proper cause of cause and effect
The rule that we all respect is the metric of our success
The things that we all perfect is the thing that we all regret
He tells me he's heard it all, I'm replaying speech like cassettes
I give forgiveness, I'm my own witness, but you were vicious
I made malicious people with goals that they'd turn religious
You never listened, you just pushed it off and did business
I tried to give you my hand, and I'll swear that this ain't fictitious
I really did it, Who you think had told you to rap?
I handed you a new mic so you wouldn't pick up a strap
I handed you a new life so you'd always know where I'm at
You took the blessing you had and just ran alone cross the map
I made a prophet you made the profits inside your pockets
I said to stop it, no more deposits, I couldn't top it
You had it all, but you didn't have none to call, you pushed away your whole family and locked them behind a wall
I seen your people get weak and feeble behind a needle
Had been so lethal, cancer had taken over the peaceful
You dodged the caskets, said you was busy I seen the evil
Behind the soul I gave you, for that I'll never retrieve you