I always feel as though I'm nothing more
than just a shell
These incessant self-reminders make my life
a living hell
If only I could be somebody else
for just today
Maybe all of my small insecurities
would slip away
I could analyze and pick apart
what makes me who I am
Then I'll reconstruct the good in me
and make a better man
Maybe one who isn't lazy
or as scatterbrained at that
Or maybe I'll just sit alone
and continue being sad
Complacency is key if you should recreate the past
First, you start with all your mistakes
Followed suit with bitter laughs
Once you've successfully
stretched yourself beyond so very thin
You can reap the seed you sow
and never be comfortable and your own skin

I know that you'll never hear this
but I'm sorry for the person that I used to be
I'd like to think I've changed
(I'd like to think I've changed)
I'd like to think I've changed
(I'd like to think I've changed)

I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell
I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell

I wake to see that my friends
aren't talking anymore
It's insatiable, my longing
to just be with them once more
But times will change, it's silly
to think friends will stick around
Times will change it's silly
to think friends will stick around
I always feel as though it's like
I'm running from the past
My imaginative outbursts, killing kings
with sleight of hand
The bridges I have burned
from all the shitty things I did
But now I know I've made my bed and I'm the one who lies in it

I'm sorry for the person that I used to be
I'd like to think I've changed
(I'd like to think I've changed)
But the person that I used to be
has come back to kill me

I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell
I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell
I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell
I look like hell
I feel like hell
Jesus, I should be in hell