I hate myself for falling in love with you
Now I'm fucked up and you're with somebody new
So I drown myself in drugs and nicotine

So use me even if just for distraction
I'd leave me too after all of my actions
I'm only a man and I'm learning to live
With the fact that I'm valued for what I can give
All black fit sipping all black tea
Been fucked up but I'm tryna get clean
I wanna be in your shoes wanna see what you see
'Cause I learned to love you, I could never love me
Man I'm carrying around all the weight of a boulder
It seems to get harder the more I grow older
I'm calm on the surface but losing composure
This shell of a body won't hold any longer

I hate myself for falling in love with you
Now I'm fucked up and you're with somebody new
So I drown myself in drugs and nicotine

I hate myself for falling in love with you
Now I'm fucked up and you're with somebody new
So I drown myself in drugs and nicotine