now just where the fuck have I gone. the days feel so old and cracked and your eyelids close-you shut me out. got run over by your words today, and everyone's a hazy shade of gray. and I don't know who I am anymore, don't know where I'm coming from, don't know where I'm going to but I kinda want to hate you. I'm screaming till my bones break, but you swear you didn't even hear a whisper. I'm always left to pick up your pieces. a room of gold and you see red. what is there left that I can believe in... this so useless so dead and so ugly your eyes so disgusting so hating degrading... a room of gold and you see red. what is there left that I can believe in... now just where the fuck have I gone. the days feel so old and cracked and your eyelids close-you shut me out. and just where did I get lost. where did you go and where have I gone. it's back to me again. hair as fire. eyes as sharp as switchblades breathing death into my arms. fingers dripping scarlet... what is there left that I can beleieve in... I am so numb. I can't feel anything anymore. I am trapped in a shell and I can't feel anything anymore. I am so numb. ican't feel anything anymore. I can't feel me. I can't see me. I can't feel me...