Don't ask certain questions
Because I don't know the answers
And every time they're mentioned
My heart drops

Controlling every gesture
'Cause I can feel you staring
These thoughts I keep suppressing
Won't stay in for long

'Cause I've been like this since I could breathe
Still resenting myself constantly
Wished I could change my voice to
Sound more deep I would do it instantly

But all of my thoughts
Are fighting like they're soldiers
All of my days
Spent wishing they were over
Have made me dance the devil off my shoulder
All of my life
I dreaded getting older
But this is my summer