To be honest I didn't even want to make this I knew the topic I would talk about was frowned upon and heavily debated Everybody thinks I'm happy but I'm not and this here is my confession How I let a girl destroy me and then push me to the point of this depression Ya I'm talking about that do or die Ya I'm talking bout that suicide Got all these cars man but who gon ride? Fucked my friend a couple times Told me all those fucking lies So I wrote a song so you could find out how I felt inside I swear to God I almost shot myself a couple times I should be dead So I had a talk with god and he told me I'd be hard so I asked if I could stay and he could take you instead Remember all the shit that you was telling me? How you loved me and wasn't nobody above me now it's funny all the shit that you promised is just a memory You gave me something to believe in then you broke me into pieces and it's fucking with me mentally And I can't trust no other bitch because I'm starting to see woman as the enemy I saw you texting with the dude and it was cool because you told me you and him were just friends Then I caught you in the bed let it slide took you back and then you went and fucked the same dumb nigga again! What the fuck bitch? I gave my all to you There's a kid that no ones knows about and me and you both know that I'm the father too that means I am apart of you, you went and broke my heart in two then stabbed me in the back and watched me bleed pulled an pulled an audible Fuck! How you think this gon end? Cause I been dealing with depression Social media attention They expect me to be happy but I'm fucking depressed Ye I swear I'm fucking depressed All the money in the world don't mean a thing if you can't share it with somebody that you love and that you fucking respect Do you know how it feels to be awake but all you want to do is go back to sleep because reality suffocating pushing on your chest so all you want to do is go and live your life in ya dreams? Do you know how it feels when the person that you love doesn't love you back when say the right things but their actions are opposite of everything they tell you everyday to relax? Bitch I would of killed for u! Man fuck all of this music I'd pass up on a deal for you! Other niggas tried to fuck I swear I only saw the real in you! You cheated twice! And now I can't deal with you! It's Dax