There is something that's inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can't be rational when I've been

Awake for a couple of days
You don't understand my struggles
Don't pretend that you're me
You've been buying a new necklace
When there's a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I'm not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something's causing all this pain
Must've slipped up in the past
Please don't try to cheer me up
Don't lie to me, I hate that
I'm aware of all my faults
And I'm trying to fix that

And I can't stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings
I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I'll end up insane
I think that
To say that it's a little too late
And I just
Can't bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don't wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
I've had a few dreams about you
But they're all in my head
Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave your name in my flesh
So I can't forget if I tried to

You're gonna leave me for dead
I keep fucking up the timing
You don't wanna listen
You got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
Feel like I should start to fight more
I don't need to be religious baby
You know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

Anxious I can't breathe
I'm getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don't ever speak to me
Don't act like you got time now
I'm fighting with myself
I'm out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk I'm scared of speaking when I call her