Solitary Demise

sensation in my mind,
no perception having.
thoughts of death, self mutilation.
ending of this life having misery.
hoping it will end, i'll take it all away.

disclosure, my mind asphyxiates, my existence,
veins run cold, mind slowly drains.
cannot choose life brought eternally,
in my mind, death will come to an end.
insanity, damned for eternity.
no life, take it all away.
can't choose life brought eternally.
no life, take it all away.

as i endulge myself for this painful torture,
the fear penetrates my mind, as my loneliness begins.
to end in death, hoping that this is my last breath.
i drown in this solitary demise.

when my body struck the ground, i thought it was all over.
but death has failed me and it feels so painful.
as i scream in discomfort, my mind screams in excruciation.
as i lay there hopelessly when i should have died in pain.

take my soul, i'm suffering.
offer afterlife, take me from this agony.
mental anguish of madness, take my soul.
take me from this pain, take me from this world.

hearing my call, i become loud.
can you hear my pain of grief.
depressive state haunts my soul,
in this life of misery.
parallized from my mistakes, can you feel the pain.
depressive state haunts my soul, can you feel the pain.

suddenly i suffer,
damnation turns to torture.
starve myself,
feel my pain continue to destroy

how can i take my life, hopelessly living in this hell.
death will not accept my life.