When I was a young man I often traveled to the sea To where the crashing ocean waves and sandy shores meet I envisioned tidal waves to wash my soul away To take me from the earth and send me to my grave You see, I've never really been glad to be alive Never been comfortable in my skin, though I've tried I tried to bond with others and tried to keep good company But no one wants to be with a miserable wretch like me I'm a tortured man, but I am what I am
And as I grew older my heart burned with scorn And hatred for the world to which I'd rather not been born I turned to the bottle to try and numb my soul To numb my mind and unwind this mortal coil I wondered what it'd be like to take away a life To look a man in the eyes as his beating heart dies Would I feel Better or would I be lonesome still? These are the thoughts that drove me to kill I'm an evil man, but I am what I am
And so I stalked the streets for many nights I fired many bullets and plunged many knives Fueled by misery, alcohol and drugs They've helped me to find my one true love But now I hear those sirens call It seems the time has come to take the fall They're gonna throw me in a cold gray cell To finally put a seal on this living hell Lock the door and throw the key away Leave me by myself to rot away To count the days 'til I will be put to death and finally be free
Now I am an old man that's soon to be dead I stand here and listen to the words a preacher man says And there stands an executioner with a rope in his hands To hang me from the neck 'cause my soul has been damned I'm an evil man, but I am what I am