Reaching out his hand to shake mine
My eyes caught his
I saw it then — I was dangerous
He was glad to be done with me
Not yet an enemy but maybe something even more sinister
A single voice could ruin everything
But my soul said run even when my heart said stay
So I carried the blame knowing this would only get worse
And it did

The pain isn't what drives your fist into the wall
It's not the hurt inside you that slams you into a panic
And causes you to run in fear
It's knowing what it was like to live without the pain
Now knowing the better days are behind
But there was nothing you could have done to save yourself
So get over it
Rub some dirt on it and
Let's go

The God I loved became silent
I chased after Him like a jealous lover
I closed my eyes and prayed for relief
But no one answered

Take the child and make them trust you
Fill their heads with Hell but promise them an escape
The Good Lord will make his face shine upon us all
His light will reveal what you must hate

I keep on searching for salvation
I couldn't help myself
There's too much sugar in the sermon
I wanted more than this
But it was masturbation
An image of a God that made me turn my back on

Something real that I could call home
Where blood reveals fear or family
Something real that I could lean on
To be human still but loved the same

I saw the world begin to eat itself
Void of answers and left to bleed
We picked up our words and threw them like stones
Holy and righteous for everyone to see

(Everybody knows)
Did you notice
(Oh oh oh)
Did you notice me?
(That's just the way it goes)
I relive those days–
(Oh oh oh)
–Did you notice?
I won't let you forget it

I never said I forgot you, forsake you
I only asked if the road ever divided
I touched a hand that was reaching out for me
But wasn't it long ago that it was decided

On to the night sky
That lays before us
Single bright lights
That join in the chorus

I won't stop to hear your disdain or adoration
I lick my wounds and I carry the scars
And I keep on moving I keep changing
I would never go back
There is nothing to go back to
So you tell them, You tell them that I'm lost
Preach that you are found
But you stole God from me
And replaced him with your certainties