Slip Out The Back

You know me
I used to get caught up in everyday life
Trying to make it through my day so I could sleep at night
Trying to figure my way through the maze of rights and wrongs
But like you used to say
Nothing feels like it's really worth it

Forget perfect
I'm trying not to be worthless
Since I last saw you I've been looking for a purpose
Well, I met this kid who thought like I did
He had a weird way of looking at it
This is what he said

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cuz you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cuz you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

Now
I don't remember where I met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was just too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck-fifty
And what he said seemed so right
It stuck with me

Listen
It's like poker
You can play your best
But you gotta know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards
Hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck
Because

I don't need to tell you that life isn't fair
It doesn't care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air
And like you I want someone to say its okay
In the truest part of our hearts everybody's afraid

We're just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that we're scaring ourselves
You understand what I'm saying cuz you always did
But it's different in the words of a cowardly kid

Who said slip out the back before they know you were there
At the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cuz you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

Slip out the back before they know you were there
At the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cuz you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

And I'm no hero
You remember how it was
You know
All I ever did was worry
Feeling out of control
To the point where everything is going end over end
I'm spinning around in circles again
This is where you come in

All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life
Please remember
This isn't how I hoped it would be
But I had to protect you from me

That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time I was around I'd just bring you down
And I could tell that it was time to be scared

That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
And I know the way I left
It wasn't fair
I didn't wanna be around just to bring you down
I'm not a hero but don't think I didn't care