And I found my head uncrowned and all life's sweet nectar flowing down the cracks and seams wasted on some petty little prayers And I reached up for despair but I was well below that cherished stage and all my mangled hopes all song unsung Chorus: I fear I've wasted all my sun I fear I've wasted all my time Everything is faded Smiles are fabricated now I fear I've wasted all my sun I fear I've wasted all my time Held my eyes closed for too long And I ran out through the streets in hopes that I might find it there but all my buildings stared back at me tenantless and bare and I reached up for the sky, but it always seemed so far away transcendent thoughts you gave lie atrophied and broken (chorus) And I sat when I should have stood; swallowed when I should have spit until now I only recognize me in pictures taken long ago and all the changes simply haunt and never go away a friend will tell when I hit hell, I may not feel the change Held my eyes closed for too long Held my eyes closed for too long Just before I go don't you offer any sweet advice because where were all your shoulders when I needed them so long ago and now with legs weak and weary from this silly dance with a suitcase fulof memories, I pack my bags and slowly drift away Hold my breath, wish that I could find a place To hideaway Hideaway, take me now I cannot face another round