Mind was drowning in the pain
Still scorching like a solar flare
Like California never rains
My planets burning up in flames
The problem is I hesitate to live inside my dreams
That's the real me
Because the walk outside ain't what it seems
Keep my karma clean
Hit the hoes with shoulder leans
Give my prayers on my knees
Wear my heart up on my sleeve
Take it
I bury all my problems
Too pussy to try and face them
I'm too insecure to love
I've been fucking up my relations
I know that time it don't exist, but never could we replace it
I know the future never comes
It's the moment that turn the pages
I've been contemplating
Jumping off the highest scraper
Tired of this drama nation
Filled up with all type of hatin'
Where's the love?

Big boys they don't cry, that's word to Fergie nigga
Keep light by my side, you never hurt me nigga
Give life through my shine, I'm like the summer nigga
I can't waste no time, we losing numbers nigga

Time is of the essence
You can blink and miss a blessing
Went from trapping and finessing to just scrapping and progressing
Went from nastiest depression to enhancing through the pressure
Went from passive aggressive to surpassing my lessons
Now I tap dance inside the pain
I gained trust in my parents, they wisdom never failed
I been afraid, I'm still caught up under the city spell
I keep the magic inside me, I never kiss and tell
I'm light like when a feather fell
Church bells ringing, I sat with Christ in my prison cell
My mind wreaking havoc like 9 11 when the towers fell
My heart shoot forward like Mac 11's with 50 shells
My body stay grounded like coins we flipped in the wishing well
I wish you well
Though love is something that seems to fail
You put your faith in someone then end up broken and takin' Ls
I put my faith in no one, I rather save it inside my self
My roots are steady growin', I'm never knowing but time will tell

Big boys they don't cry, that's word to Fergie nigga
Keep light by my side, you never hurt me nigga
Give life through my shine, I'm like the summer nigga
I can't waste no time, we losing numbers nigga

See the problem never was that I lack in my precision
It is the fact I let the past determine my decisions
Used to live inside the future till my present started trippin'
Trynna live inside the moment so I watch the time tickin'
It's a lonely path being different
It's like attack of the clones, a nigga be keeping distant
I might collapse like I'm old, I feel the love is missin'
I might retract to my soul the way the planet's spinnin'
God I wish I wasn't timid

Big boys they don't cry, that's word to Fergie nigga
Give life through my shine, I'm like the summer nigga
Feel shame when we cry, it's from the hunger nigga
Switch lanes when it's time, I'm burnin' rubber nigga