Yeah, look Let me tell you bout a kid named steven He still be running out of things to believe in Every couple of months his mom leaves him For no good reason his stepdad beats him Not too many friends, only ever had a few of them But recently they don't want anything to do with him Always eatin lunch in the bathroom stall He just wants to feel normal and be cool again Yeah, always feeling like the outcast Hes been going crazy ever since his dad passed And he's got it in the vice But his daddy only has break downs And flash backs of the car crash It's been getting harder every day If he was still around everything will be okay 'Cause his dad was always The light at the end of the tunnel But now the same damn tunnels looking dark and gray
He keeps quiet in the back of the class And when the bell rings steven hurries home fast He's scared that the other kids Will kick his ass on the long walk home Cause its happened in the past He's getting used to the black eyes and fat lips But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists Wishin he can walk right up to em Show em the scars and say look You're the reason that I've done this
And maybe you'll finally understand And go back to how it was before it all began But it's just a little difference So they taunt him and they beat him Yeah Its all just fun and games, they don't give a damn His older brother ain't around In and out in jail, hanging with the wrong crowd He's been doing coke, smoking weed, getting drunk All his life he's a shame, no he's not too proud Now what's happened to him Rubbin off on his little bro, yeah But guess what, little did he know That every time you did a line, every time you lit a joint Every time you took a shot, you was at the mode So steven sitting in his room, getting high now Doors locked, music up with the lights out He just takes another toke till the rooms filled with smoke 5-6-7 Hours till he knocks out Now Hes startin stealin pills from his mom 8-9-10 At a time and now they're gone And maybe for the moment all his problems seem to fade But the high fades too, after not too long And that's when it really sinks in That's when it hits em, that these god damn drugs wont fix em Curled up on the floor, can't take it anymore Now he's talking to god, 'cause he's the only one that gets em
On his knees, looking up, can't stop crying God I know we haven't talked in a long time But it's time I really need you, please god help me say Something just give me a sign 'cause now I'm falling apart And now I think that I can do it Please god give me the strength to pull through it Tell me should I give up, I can end it all right now I just don't know if I'm brave enough to do it
'Cause it's gotta be a better way than suicide Trying to wait it out, give it time, youll be fine But it's been so long And I still haven't been able To get rid of all the thoughts that I feel inside So sick, so angry, so mad And to top it off, no one even knows that Thats when he stood up, wiped his tears Walked over to his desk and got a pen and a notepad
He just couldn't see getting any better So on a cold dark night in december Steven knew exactly what he had to do But first he sat down and wrote a couple letters One to his stepdad, one to his mother Couple to the kids at school, one to his brother Bringing them the pain that they once brought him Tear drops on the paper, one after another
Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty 'Cause I'm broken now and you can't heal me Now you're all an accomplice of murder Each and everyone one of you have chipped in to kill me So the reason that I'm writing you this evening It's to say goodbye and to tell you that I'm leavin But don't hold your breath 'cause I ain't never coming back Sincerely yours, steven