Father forgive me for you know that I am always sinning
I take no interest partying with liquor
fucking up my system
Excuse my language that's a hang up
on how shitty I been feeling
I'm sorry I feel no attraction I know that it's been a minute

'Cause I've been solo for so long
'Cause I've been solo for so long
'Cause I've been s- (hey) so long
'Cause I've been solo for so long

[Josh A]
Yeah
All I do is sit in my house by myself
By my wealth
And I wonder if anybody really care about my wellbeing
Like, if I die would anybody really come out seeking?
(For me?)
It's been a while since my phone rang
Think I'm about to start a motherfuckin' loner gang
But it would only be myself
Man I wish that I could fly away
Book a one-way ticket to the better days
Back then when I would suck in all my classes
I could see my friends with forced interactions
But we graduated, now they got jobs and they're busy
I'm just playing Xbox and I feel shitty
Man I don't wanna say it man this shit is formulaic
I wake up then I go right back to bed an then replay it
Music used to be my escape
Now it's a nightmare
I pray to God but he don't answer my prayers
But I'm living
Been growing up
Spotify blowing up
I should be happy, right?
I should keep rapping, right?
My fans'll be clapping, right?
If I didn't try none of this would've happened, right?
Yeah
I got kids who looking up to me to be a role model
Feel like I let 'em down when I down another bottle
So I put down the bottle

All I do it sit inside my house all day
Sometimes I wanna change
But I don't ever change, no, no
All I do it sit inside my house all day
Sometimes I wanna change
But I don't ever change, no, no