She told me that she love me
But I don't think she loves me
Said, how the fuck you love me
When I don't even love me?

She told me that she love me
But I don't think she loves me
Said, how the fuck you love me
When I don't even love me?
She told me that she trusts me
But I don't think she trusts me
Said, how the fuck you trust me
When I don't even trust myself?

I'm worried 'bout my health, I sit and I tell
Stories 'bout my life that I hope they don't sell
I'm really unwell, I'm not myself
But I'm tryna find a way
That girl, she numbs my pain
I wish it weren't that way
I question if I'm sane
But she's been calling me, calling me
I hate that she's in love with me
But I don't wanna let you in (Oh)

She told me that she love me
But I don't think she loves me
Said, how the fuck you love me
When I don't even love me?
She told me that she trusts me
But I don't think she trusts me
Said, how the fuck you trust me (Listen)
When I don't even trust myself?

They say I'm woke, but I'm wide awake
'Cause I write till my palms will ache
I'm moving mummy to a place
where there's palms and lakes
so I keep an arm from fakes
They want the silver off my back
and they think there's no harm in apes
I give the best advice 'cause I've made the most mistakes
You gotta partake in fuckery to see who really fucks with me
Wanna eat of my table, but not with my cutlery
See, I stopped puttin' the cuts in me
slicin' up my cake now
They put the cuts in me (Uh)
I've got so much love in me
but I don't see them lovin' me (Nah)
See, my aura's so bubbly, my smiles are so lovely
But my cries are so ugly (Trust)
Fam, you ain't see the other me
They're only huggin' me monthly for that money, G
That's why there's no fucking trust in me
Stop tellin' me your lovin' me
when I ain't even lovin' me (Uh)

She told me that she love me
But I don't think she loves me
Said, how the fuck you love me
When I don't even love me?
She told me that she trusts me
But I don't think she trusts me
Said, how the fuck you trust me
When I don't even trust myself?

Yeah, I don't trust myself
Make decisions that are bad for my health
Mentally, I'm meant to be inside a box on a shelf
Don't let me out 'cause then I'll doubt the way
I love someone else, yo
I think I'm crazy, I think I'm stupid, I think I
I think I'm lazy, I think I'm useless, I think I'll
Buy a Mercedes and never use it, and then I'll
Relive the '80s and roll a huge spliff, wait (Yeah)
My anxiety is steady eyein' me
In my entirety, I'm just a shell of who I try to be
And if she lovin' me, then I'll assume
that she gon' lie and cheat
I'm tired, please
(I don't wanna do this anymore)
It's a quarter to four
Can't sleep, so I look up at the moon on my porch
It's out of reach like the love
she never gives in the morning
But to believe in someone else is something
I could afford, yeah

She told me that she love me
But I don't think she loves me
Said, how the fuck you love me
When I don't even love me?
She told me that she trusts me
But I don't think she trusts me
Said, how the fuck you trust me
When I don't even trust myself?