[intro]
And that was a dark depressing time for him, you know
He did had one visit with his mother I think
During the time that he lived with me and she brought
Him a huge box fill with gifts you know clothes and all
Kinds of little goodies and stuff and it sat in the corner
Untouched, literally for months
He'd never opened anything just
Left the box there

[verse 1]
What's goin' on in your mind
When someone you haven't seen
Since you were nine is out on your door step right now
Rewind, remember that one time when marco showed up
On the front door we found out
He escaped from a psych ward
And stole grandma's car, rest her soul
I know that's off topic, but I miss her so
So ironic that she was blind but told me I'm handsome
I was every time that I walked in through the door
Can't lie say it was easy being fourteen
On february fourteenth
Watching a body die in my arms
Then have to go to a school
That I hated with my grade [?]
I don't give a fuck what's going on a couple hours later on
And not to mention that one bitch that I loved
By the way I call her bitch because she was
Wanted me to catch another man fucking her
Invited me over, told me to come into the front
Come up stairs
And say what's up and there she was little slut
I was broken hearted should of broke that bitch's jaw
Just for playin' me like a chump
But I step into the garage grab one
Of her brother's rifles, went outside, and shot that other
Mothafucka's truck up
I guess that's what lead me to cuffs
Becomin' common in my life like funerals was
Daddy's less common now he gave up
After he had the judge to
Pin a fuckin felony on his son
Funny enough me and aunt bonnie
Are even closer start
To feel some weight lift off his shoulder
Till I piled back on when a [?] told her
She got breast cancer and might not live much longer
Fast forward the women I call my mother
Isn't my mother or even blood but that's how much I love
Her and I feel [?] cause the doorbells
I call her maybe I ain't ready for it, what should I wear?
Fuck that I ain't going down there
I waited over a decade for closure
Why should I receive it if it might not be something
I want to hear in the mirror is a empty reflection
And in my head I question I want to ask like
Where the fuck did you go?
Why did you turn my birthdays
Into the worst days every year that you didn't show?
And if you must know I didn't turn out to be
Much else fell in trouble fell face first
Through a pile of hell took four snuffs of the devils
And my manager helping me
Cause I couldn't take a piss by myself
But I did get a record deal and all my records
Got that making of a legend feel
And I did have a daughter who I promise
The way that way you made me felt is the way
She will never, feel flip a benadryl
On my cup fuck it im sickin up pit in my stomach
Clenching all my muscles stiffin up
I ain't been this nervous
Since I got [?] over a surface cover with ashes
And jump took a [?] sit it down [?] my chucks
Reach for the door but my hands sweaty
I'm anxious as fuck couldn't even hit the stairs
Without remembering how many years I was there
Waiting to see your car pull up, huh
Now you saying she's right there
Now you saying she's right there?
You telling me if I open up this door right here
That she'll been standing right there?
Huh, and after all these years am I wrong
For having this fear
And of meeting the reflection that was missing in the mirror
Open up the door and then I see her