Never was one for honor roll
How much of this music can
I make until im bound to blow
Im sacrificing everything
just tryna make it gold
There's more performers on the stage
than the entire show
but you already know

False statements yall complacent
So I cant fuck with you
If you a fan of my music
Can't fall in love with you

Told myself this year im famous
thats a rough issue
Been lying to myself
I've been having trust issues
Forgive me

Im moving at top speeds no slowing down
I've been going hard since 18 and
they want me now
I never forgot about making momma proud
Visit her on the cape
just to tell her that ima take her out

I woke up on a Pj getting a Bj
for peeps sakes been touring hard man
for weeks straight
I imagine that my life, for years straight
asking hanny if we got paid yet
while eating steaks

I know I'm going platinum and gold
I turned down all the money
I wouldn't give them my soul
Oh you heating up right now
well we've been left in the cold
I Grew up in New England my whole life
been paying the tolls man

My highest plays come out of Chicago
End on a high note
like my name was demi lovato
I'm in a spiral, haters talk and
I take the high road
I'm living life though
fully focused on hitting my goals

It's just another day of me just
living life
I grew up riding round my hood
on pedal bikes, yeh

They dont give me daps because
I'm partly white
I ask my momma for advice
she told me never take advice

Life and lately how I feel
Numbers they been offering to me
are way to fucking real
Holding out for every single fee
I know im worth the mils
I'm counting every dollar bill
while eating off the dollar meals

And to people that are calling my phone
I need some time to go relax
so please leave me alone
I need my lady to just text me that
she's ready come home
Until then I got a line up
thats just ready to bone man

I think that im addicted to this
If I dont make it you can bet that
I am ending this shit

Suicide aint on my mind but man
Im killing for this
And anybody in the way is
just in danger of hits dog

I know I gotta keep me in check
Because im good but lately ive been
really feeling the stress

Last week I had this feeling
feeling strangely depressed
You should see what
I was writing my mind was a mess
but fuck it

Homie I was built for this shit
I got Alexis in my bed and she just sent
me a pic
Im at the studio this second
while im recording this hit
She said to put her in the song and
so ill save it for this

I think that I need to talk to the beat
Last album went and flopped but man
I hardly repeat
Since December I done tripled
everything that I leaked
I'm doing numbers independent
that some signing cant reach
but look

I wrote this while driving outta the city
I was Texting while im driving
this girl amazing and pretty
She Snapping my phone
she living at home
She crazy in the head but
she got the craziest dome
forgive me