There are certain times when I wished I wasn't so alive,
and I would take it out on people like they were dead
I blow them away with words so red,
it chops their skulls from their shoulders,
and they run circles till they fall off the face of the earth
it only works if I know enough about you to pierce your heart,
your soul, and if you've pierced mine
It only works if you've touched me soft with patterns of trust
I disengage the bond if my paranoia seeps to the surface like vomit
Why do you even bother?
It happens when I hate myself to the bone
Broken mirror I feel alone
Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home away from your prying eyes?
Did you ever wonder if I smiled at home away from my worldly disguises?

Deep thought crushes me with bombs and ill-will feeds on
interpretation until I'm inhuman, a beast
I resent you for your cold streak
Backwards I walk, talk, and think
I lose myself in a cradle of a sadistic hate
I slowly shake
It rings in my blood, and I salivate like a chorus of cats in heat,
for the slightest contact, with my sharp long looks and calls
I starve for attention
I run from myself towards a wall
There's no escaping me, I jump and stall
Your hand still clutching my ankle,
I viciously let go with thoughts, yells, rivers, translations of my life from hell,
in the split second before the concrete smashes my face
They cut you deeply I smell your blood like a fiend, and reach even deeper,
I masturbate mentally with the strange power pain has blessed me with
I can't stop until you hit the floor
My arms I hold out, I let you fall thru them
Secretly smiling I bring you down to my level of broken-ness

We're such dragons

Maybe if I loved myself more I could stand to look myself in the eyes
and wipe away those sharp tears
I could blow you away, for how you hurt me
You lock yourself in a path, if you feel I don't translate into your language at the time
I needed you immensely
Stuck to your guns, you watched from outside
I was melting
Now shuffled by the world you reach out for sympathy?
With my eyes I remind you of scars only seen by God,
who keeps account of each souls pain by weighing the bags that have grown so big,
they almost block my vision
I want to fuck you over with each decision
I'm an animal when I feel unnoticed, unaccepted by those I build homes for in my heart
Wrecked I check myself into your mind, and you do the same at the same time
We recklessly crash thru memories spilling them in bursts, like long-held desire
We hesitate then reach for each other
Time instantly pauses
Stuck leaning forward, our position slowly spins 360 degrees
I see the thoughts in the back of your mind,
the same way I see my crimes against your spirit
I smell you bloody as guilt tints my vision towards reality,
I see the one of your tears inches from the floor
I lunge, grab it, it glistens stuck in the air
Then hide it from the world's stare

We're such dragons
(You know I love you)