I have lost myself within a curse And must become someone else, someone worse
I have lost the track of days for a night has fallen upon me A darkness too thick for all light to penetrate My eyes have grown to wear the dark yet still I cannot see No strength left in this shell to rise from my ill-fate
It feels like ages since I've last spoken It feels like aeons since I last slept But in this silence there is no comfort Nothing to dry the rivers I have wept
I barely remember what joy felt like Hardly recall what it was once to live Drowning ever deeper into the dark despite for ages This wretched soul has had nothing more to give
And forgive me for holding you too tight That just to breathe you had push yourself away And forgive me for far too long stealing your eyes That without sight you were bound to walk away
For what is given can never be returned A heart, a life, a shell now broken, incomplete Like a world far too long allowed to burn Nothing left to salvage, nothing left to keep
And forgive me for all my dreams That far too long kept you awake And forgive me for replacing the sun with you Leaving you in the dark, too dense for you to take
Now at the heart of dying, from the depths I dwell I grant thee heaven, and for myself I reserve only hell
Like all flowers too fair for this world Draw near the beasts to devour and to rend Then how could a love far too fair for this cold world Do nothing more but end
And in my heart the memories of those years I would cherish and I would hold But without one there is nothing left to do But to succumb to the bleak and cold
And forgive me for all my crimes Unforgive me for all these lines