My head keeps spinnin and spinnin and spinnin I don't know if this is the end or it's the beginnin Man I'm losin my mind, I think I'm losin my mind I think I'm losin my mind, I sink deeper try to keep it in line
I'm feeling like I wanna die I'm an addict, I'm not talkin 'bout a fuckin marijuana high Fuck the gangster talk, I'll smash your teeth in with the baby Glock I'm a mental patient spittin crazy talk I'm talented but life's a balancing act And I am way off of alignment, the payoff isn't time yet I'm so fuckin broke I'm puttin clothes up for consignment I used to be white lightning Now I'm sittin in a dark cloud, wonderin where my mind went [Mad Child laughs for a few seconds] Y'all know where to find me! Behind closed blinds, I'm on my type-a-writer While I watch a spider climbin up the wall To spin a web, and catch a fly and watch him die He sucks all of the blood out of him then I start to cry I don't know why, I don't know why he swallowed a fly You're all gonna die; that's my only comfort I smashed my iphone before you get my number ... I'm clinically insane, mentally deranged Hangin from a string strangled by a chain... I guess all of the drugs have done a number on my brain Fuck it!
Yo I look up in the sky, I see the sun shining So why's my mind spinning? Arkham Asylum Dark Knight, Ra's al Ghuls, Scarecrows, Jokers, Riddlers Catwomen and Penguins, Spidey sense is tingling Hobgoblin, Doc Oc, Sandman, and Venom My mind starts to die/dye like it's indigo denim Time for me to Sean Penn 'em, lose 21 grams It's the game at close range, I'm the Falcon, he's the Snowman He's drinkin down a Pepsi while I'm openin a Coke can My first show in front of ten thousand out at Snow Jam No man, old man, take a look at my life Carve my name in the tree with my own pocket knife Yeah I'm classic Old Spice, you a Spice Girl, +Scary+ Selling off my mental property, "Glen Ross Glengarry" And I know it's around here somewhere on the property buried But I'm plastered like a poster - Obey, Shepard Fairey 6:30 every mornin, is when I get up like Banksy Jet to the studio Mad's trippin sittin angtsy It's reality and fantasy but I can't separate My feet are on the ground so how the fuck my body levitate?
In no way is this meant to disrespect my family or God Yeah... Okay seven day coke binge, heroin in tinfoil Heroin in pill form, brain egg hardboiled Mad Child chase dragon, turn into a gargoyle Grade 7 mom took me shopping down at Park Royal This is not the life that I have dreamt about Mentally I'm emptied out, rapping while I vent with a demented mouth Sentimentally my sentiments are printed out Now stick a knife inside me, giving you something to think about Insanity, it's hereditary, grandma got dementia Grandma tried to kill herself, she's suffering from depression And Mad Child suffer from depression So am I going to try to kill myself is constantly my question