I'm so sorry for how I was I know I was a lot to handle But when you've been broken like I have It's hard to trust in love Is the thought of me stuck in your head? Or am I just a memory? Faded to the back of your mind Never to be seen I'm writing this song here while I'm empty It's the only time I can Because my bottle is the same It's hard to put into words How I feel these days It's hard to imagine this could change Oh how I wish, oh how I wish you'd stay
I just want to feel the beating of your chest against my head again When I fall asleep, frayed and bleak I miss the way you held me close I'm finding it hard to cope without you I'm sorry I had to be this way I couldn't help it, I'm not okay I'd rather die than watch you walk away
I'm finding it hard to focus The closest I get to you is in my dreams But I no longer sleep The nights turn into mourning My mind is my own hell But you gave me strength to love myself And I admit I need your help
I just want to feel the beating of your chest against my head again When I fall asleep, frayed and bleak I miss the way you held me close I'm finding it hard to cope without you I'm sorry I had to be this way I couldn't help it, I'm not okay I'd rather die than watch you walk away
I can see that you don't love me It's no longer hard to tell But all these chemicals in my brain They just don't work that well I can't argue that you're leaving I don't even like myself So if I ever happen to drift off I hope I don't wake up