Once I felt something, something more than despair Once this life meant something, but no longer do I care Everything I felt was so long ago, everything I was has faded Once I yearned to again see your face All I see now is shades of grey Once all I wanted was to feel your embrace All I want now is to drift away. Everything I was has turned to dust Everything I am is decayed. The gashed eyes, torn lies you fed me You stain the truth. With deceit you left me no strength to feel. Once I tried to make you love me I gave up, it wasted my time Once I shed my tears on your beauty I gave in to emotions and it corrupted my mind Everything I thought was wrong, everything I loved is gone Once I tried to believe, forced to kneel, forced to bleed Once was so long ago, so long ago I felt the need To feel the steel cut deep, to long for that eternal sleep. Refrain Hallowed out and thrown away Don't care to see another day Happiness and stability disappear fast Emotions finally die at last Tired of living, tired of deceiving, tired of caring, tired of grieving I have no strength to lie or the strength to cry I've got the strength to pick up the steel, but not the strength to feel.