Plan B

This isn't breaking my back
But my spirit
You know that it is
when you just take it
and start to forget who you were

It's not just the hours
that feel so wasted
I've wasted more than this
when I used to just look
for a way around everything

I did it all to stay clean
It was instinct

This isn't hard on my hands
And I wouldn't care if it was
I'd rather not even think
if I have to think
inside this other world

This may be just what I need
Keep everything separated

I'll never really stay clean
No way I can see

This may be just what I need
Keep everything

It may be what I need
But it's not what I want
Anymore

-Bubba Kadane