I got the city lights
I got another pint
Dulling the depression
That I feel inside

I am the blackest curse on this green earth
I am the blackest curse on this green earth

A part of me
I used to be
Hurting over what I let the mirror see

I am the blackest curse on this green earth
I am the blackest curse on this green earth

Laughing out loud
In the place where he died
Dancing with a stranger
Like it never even happened

I mean I'm already not getting any sleep these days
So I party with the memories
Invite out all my best defenses
I am the blackest curse on this green earth

I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not who I thought I'd be
But I'm not hopeless

Depression has never been easier
Now that we're forced to navigate
A sea of untrained experts
And their inane opinions on every thing

I must be out of my mind, right?
I must be God damn deaf, right?
I must be misguided, right?
And no one finds you narcissistic, right?

There is a special place in hell for me
There is a
There is a special place in hell for me

I'm sick of losing every argument that I have with myself
Just once let me be the other guy who's been winning
I understand if I wanted to remain trusted
I needed to believe in my own lies
So don't remind me

Come on!

That's not how you shake with anger
That's not how you lose your mind
That's not how you shake with anger
You've been faking this whole time

And good for you
You probably get good sleep at night
But pointed questions belong in dull minds
So learn to shut up sometimes

I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not hopeless, I'm not hopeless
I'm not who I thought I'd be
But I'm not hopeless

I'm not hopeless
No, I won't always stay down
I'm not hopeless
And I can live with the fact
That I'm not who I thought I'd be
But I'm not hopeless

The joke that I told to my friends at the wake
About the name that I gave him
At the bar while we were drinking

I mean I'm having trouble feeling anything these days
I drink a lot more now in case you're wondering

There is a special place in hell for me
There is a
There is a special place in hell for me

There is a special place in hell for me
There is a
There is a special place in hell for me