I had something to tell you Something about me that I wanted to tell you cuz I was scared I remember all the good times we had And how much you cared And how I wouldn't risk it for the world
So I held it in I pretended to be what you wanted I wanted to tell you but you made it clear How you felt, by things you said
So up went the walls and I shut myself in Into the misery, the misery I had no one to go to I had no one else to go to So I buried my secret nice and deep And tried not to hate myself
Thanks a lot
Now I'm older and I know You were the one who was supposed to show me I could be anything that I wanted to be But oh not that, not who I really was, who I really am
You know that every time you said those things, it came back down on me It would haunt me in my nightmares and when I was awake And I know you didn't plan on this You thought it was best for me, and you were wrong And you know that I still love you But at the same time, when I recall my suffering, I hate you for this one thing