Torn between being a child
my whole life or the man you need
Cause there's the easy way out
And there's blood, sweat, and tears
And I'll be gone more than I'm home for the next year
And it'll take everything that I have to not stop running

You said it's never black and white with me
Just lesser truths and shades of grey
What the fuck did you see in me anyway?
An investment not worth the price you paid
And I feel the strain
But I'm too fucking scared to doing the right thing
I'll never find it in myself
To let someone love you properly

I've saved up the hours that I've spent just drowning
Staring out at the empty space from my side of the bed
Well, I'd trade them all and the pictures drawn
In the condensation on my window to see you standing there

Lie to me
Tell me you still need me
Cause I owe that charade
For the only reason I found sleep
In the past three years
And I owe that charade
For the distance that I keep
From who I used to be
Torn between being a child my whole life or the man you need
Torn between being a child my whole life or the man you need

I've saved up the hours that I've spent just drowning
Staring out at the empty space from my side of the bed
Well, I'd trade them all and the pictures drawn
In the condensation on my window to see you standing there

There's no shortage of new faces
And so many places I've never been
But he one place I keep inside my head
Is where the sun shines through your white curtains
And the breeze that lifts them off the wall
And gently wakes me up to the world
To an overwhelming smell of home
But I can't be there for long

And I never wanted to be the one that only lets you down
And a promise that I can keep
is that my feet won't find the ground
But your heart can't see the damage done when I'm around