i've been in denial
i've been hiding like a kid
i try to list your imperfections
shift the blame for what i did
i don't trust my excuses
they're just how i've learnt to live
knowing i destroyed the shelter
of our love

i can say i'm ready to learn
i've been chasing the answers
but i don't have enough
to keep up with your pace

you're miles ahead of me
in knowledge and love
miles ahead of me
in courage and faith
miles ahead of me
in truth and intent
miles ahead of me
in kindness ans strength
you're miles ahead of me

it wasn't my intention
but i used your precious time
you opened up your life
but i was holding on to mine
returned your honest certainty
with panic and retreat
the fear defeats me every time
we speak

but i'm ready to learn
i've been chasing the answers
still i don't have enough
to keep up with your pace

how could anyone be so obsessed
with freedom
i somehow still expected you to stay