My First murder

Dear God,
Dear family,
Dear life,
Here living in this jail,
Eating my death
Dying in this crazy place
Nobody here know who I am
But I know,
I am one dead man
Looking my life,
Looking myself

I´m looknig myself
But I can´t find
Anybody else
Than my past
I can´t forget,
The memories everytime back
The memories what I wish I didn´t had
How can you live
With this things in mind ?
I don´t know why
But myself I can´t find
The darkness is holding me tightly
How can you live outside
If you done the same thing like me ?

CHORUS
I´m paying for that
I´m not happy for what I done
Why have to be like that ?
I can´t do this on my own
Why the peoples are so mad ?
( I CAN´T HOLD ON )
I can´t do this on my own...

Dear God,
Dear family
Dear life
Here, living in this jail,
Eating my death,
Dying in this crazy place,
Nobody here know who I am
But I know
I am one dead man
Looking my life
Looking myself

CHORUS

I´m not happy
For what I done
You either
You are more fucked than I
You told me to do that
Don´t try escape
´Cause the destiny is behind you
I´m paying my debt
Don´t have escape

Just tell me why !! ( 3x )