I'm too emotional, I have to let you go
I haven't cleaned my room since last time you came home
And everyday that passes by
makes it so much harder to enjoy my life
Though, it's part of growing older
Sleeping with the lights off, it's better
If I'm blind so I can get you off my mind, 'cause

Everytime I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with?
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But everytime I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare

I'm too impulsive, I didn't mean to call again
I wasn't thinking straight last night at 3 A. M
I've been having trouble trying to fall asleep
Melatonin by my side, but my will is weak
Keep notions that I'm fine so I don't need
Medicated remedies, fuck benzodiazepines

Everytime I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with?
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But everytime I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
Everytime I see you smile, I die a little bit

Why do I even try? i don't why I wanna fall in love
I wanna die, everytime I see you popping up
Forget all the fights
remember the nights we had, it's not enough
I wanna lie, pretend I'm alright, but

Everytime I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with?
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But everytime I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
Everytime I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with?
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But everytime I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare