The orderlies shuffle across black and white marble They're bustling reminders that no one can slow down the days The white coats and black boards, they conspire behind locked doors They don't want to tell you how long until it eats me away
I wish you would wake me when I'm violently shaking Tossing and turning through dreams where I die giving up I wish it had been you that I'd given my heart to Instead of just wasting these moments by biting my tongue
And I've been having dreams of black and white infirmaries With the palest walls that always stand in silence If I thought that you could hear, I'd whisper in your ear All the things I couldn't come around to writing
I've been constantly stepping with these unwanted weapons Like the things that I think and I feel will destoy everything So I'll hold a flame to the things I won't tell you And sift through the ashes for some kind of reason to sing
And I'll bleed right out of these wounds that I gave myself And I'll live out, live out this life with no body's help