My tea's gone cold

I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window

And I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be gray

But your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

My tea's gone cold

I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window

And I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be gray

But your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Dear Colleen, I don't know what's up

But you're not answerin'

I wish you could just open up to me

So we could just talk about stuff

And yes I wrote a song because I've ran out of ideas

To get you to notice me I'm tryna tell you somethin

Talk to me

Like what the fuck is happening?

Just tell me somethin, I'm begging you

I dropped my biggest cover and I wanted you

To be there to see it through

Your support is what I look forward to the most

But you're choosin' to post a selfie

To your feed instead of answerin me

Do you feel choked? or do you feel like

Everybody's drowning you?

Cuz this silent treatment you givin' people

Is fuckin' immature

You should act your age and tell me

If you are depressed

Tell me each and every problem

Get it off your fuckin' chest

You put me in a position in your life

That I deserve to know

Yes, I'm willin' to put all this for you

You fuckin' hoe

Tell me if there's someone else so my

Dad can say "I told you so"

I saw my whole future with you

But you're forcing me to let you go

My tea's gone cold

I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window

And I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be gray

But your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Colleen I hope you know that

I'm really fuckin' serious

I don't know if there's somethin' that I did

Back in the past where you were in that Shining show

And I was worried to shit cuz

Of the stories that you told me

Of their frontman Niklas

Until it came to a point you were tellin' me

You were gonna leave the venue

Then you started sending fucked up

Messages of you typin' "jhelpsehsg"

Lost my shit I got Joseph to call detroit police

To attend you

Your replies stopped

And you don't know how that felt

It all passed, you replied, and you

Told me that you were fine

All sorts of comfort and relief

Came to my fucking mind

I told you this experience of fear

Was my first time

But it's like you disregardin' the

Fact that I was traumatized

Now I'm questionin' my fuckin self if you still

Care about me like I care for you

Hmm, lemme guess

You fuckin' don't!

Cuz if you did you'd be givin' minutes and hours

To talk to me outta' your fuckin' day you fuckin' bitch!

What's a relationship without communication?

A mothafuckin' dead one!

You should be livin' up to your sayin'

That you told me that whenever you love

Someone, you give it your all!

You made my feelings reach this much

For you that's why I'm willin' to make this song

You not talkin' to me makes me feel like

Everything I do for us is fuckin' wrong

How fuckin' dare you drag me into

Your life and make me feel special

If you're the one who's letting

Us shatter and fuckin' fall!

My tea's gone cold

I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window

And I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be gray

But your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Colleen I just wanna understand everything

That you feel

But you just ain't givin' me anything to hold on to

Your actions seem like you're choosin'

To ignore me and why is that?

Please just let me understand

Don't make me blame it on you

Is it these judgemental fucks who

Keep contacting you about Shining?

Or the depressive feeling you're getting

From grieving from your friends who passed away?

Who is making you feel that bad

And smothered that you're left with

Literally zero things to say?

It's makin' me thing that maybe the throat cancer

Of your dad got the good of him

This is what my over-thinkin' mind does

When it knows my heart hasn't had a speck

Of fuckin' attention from the essence of a

Person it's attached to

I apologize with all my soul for anything I

May have done to make you feel it's

Necessary to go non-existent

I'm genuine and blunt to you, so please be the same

Cuz to me this ain't a fucking game

I take absolutely everything about you

To my fucking heart and that's my imperfection

Are you still willin' to stick to me?

Cuz your mothafuckin' inconsistence just shows

That you don't love me enough

You ain't even missin' me!

Cuz unlike you Colleen

You're the person I wanna be talkin' to

Every single day, It's give and take

Where is the equality?

So please before I leave my country

If you are givin' us up just tell me

You don't love me so the pain dies peacefully

And you set me free