Staring at my ceilin'
Convince myself it's nothin'
Pray to God to fix me
Feelin' guilty havin' thoughts
at 12 years old
Is momma gonna like this?
I'm riskin' her of grandkids
Seven years of fightin'
And I don't wanna fight no more

So I wanna let it out
Wasn't ready then
But I'm ready now

I want my friends to know me
Like really really know me
I hope this doesn't change things, huh
They say that boys don't cry
But newsflash, that's a lie
I don't fit inside your boxes
I can't stop this, no

So I'm counting down
Unlock my cell
And come on out

Oh my, beautiful bliss
I'm so foreign to this
Tell you what my walls know
Here's my first hello
Oh my, such a relief
I can be me
I don't put on no show
It's my first hello
It's my first hello

All that I said
All that I did
I learned to lock my thoughts up carefully
I held my breath
I broke my heart
I bit my tongue
It starts to bleed
And I, I hope you know
That it's not your fault
Hope my father understands
I'm not any less a man

Oh my, beautiful bliss
I'm so foreign to this
Tell you what my walls know
Here's my first hello
Oh my, such a relief
I can be me
I don't put on no show
It's my first hello
It's my first hello

I wanna let it out
Wasn't ready then
But I'm ready now