I remember walking back and forth
and all around from room to room
I remember thinking to myself: where should I be
I hadn't been there for a long time and I had no set routine
I looked in the mirror
and decided not to blame myself for everything
(Just for a while)
How can i grieve
when I've yet to finish all that other grieving
I'm so behind and I'm not even sure if this is how it's done
I remember wondering how exactly should i now be feeling
I interacted with the shadows moving up and down the walls
Maybe I'd know what i should do
if i had bothered to have children
People with children make me
so damn mad they act like they're so smart
How can i grieve when I've yet to finish
all that other grieving
I'm so behind and I'm not even sure if this is how it's done
What if I've been doing it all wrong
like I've been told since the beginning
I had just begun to get used to the world
we had and now it's gone