Carnival
I wish I was a couple years older
Couple years wiser
Just so I could know your heart

But I know that it would still confuse me anyway

I felt just a few degrees colder
Ever since the day you left

Spare my soul
Now I can still feel the pieces
of my youth just stripped away

What is life but a merry go round
Just circling doubts living up in my head
I know that they want me dead

Keep me up when I try to stay down
I try to forget all the things that they said
But they won't let me go

I try to fall asleep
But they won't let me dream
I just hope some day we'll come to terms

I'm falling underneath
And I try so hard to breathe
As this rollercoaster kills me

So this goes out to the mind games in my head
You raise hell every night inside of my bed
I don't know where you came from
But I won't play your carnival no more

I wish I was just a little stronger
So they wouldn't beat me up
But they did

I can still feel the mulch
that they kicked at me pierce my hope

So I dusted off my shoulders and then
Told myself that I could prove it to them
Just trying to justify the first taste
of feeling low

I try to fall asleep
But they won't let me dream
I just hope some day we'll come to terms

I'm falling underneath
And I try so hard to breathe
As this rollercoaster kills me

So this goes out to the mind games in my head
You raise hell every night inside of my bed
I don't know where you came from
But I won't play your carnival no more