With courage and a lost cause

I refuse to walk away from destiny
But the guilt keeps rising
and it's rushing through my blood streams again
Forced to the end of my tether
Damned to embrace the ache
cause things aren't getting any better

No saint, no martyr
Condemned to repeat and render the same mistakes
No valor, no honor
Now all hope has faulted but I just can't let this go

I'm constantly nervous
And I can't escape it
Hope I don't break before I bend
Cause the tick tock of the time bomb clock
Is getting ever so close to the end

I just wanna feel like I'm not broken
Like I'm just wasting my time
'Cause I'm starting to believe this dreams a fantasy
That I've built up in my mind, it's got me feeling like

Everyday, my head is a battlefield
Both sides waging war on how I'm supposed to feel
I just wanna feel like I'm not broken
Like I'm just wasting, I'm just wasting my time

So how many times
must I calculate a reason for my disillusion?

And now that it feels
Feels like I've adapted to chaos
I can't live without the taste
I'm scared to bite the hand that feeds
But you love to force these words upon me

So go ahead and give me the last line
and preach it to the choir
'Cause I don't believe a single word you say

Life plays out like a daydream, contorting reality
Yet my perception remains so clear
Now I'm running out of options, I'm running out of time
And time's all that we have left

I just wanna feel like I'm not broken
Like I'm just wasting my time
'Cause I'm starting to believe this dreams a fantasy
That I've built up in my mind, it's got me feeling like

Everyday, my head is a battlefield
Both sides waging war on how I'm supposed to feel
I just wanna feel like I'm not broken
Like I'm just wasting, I'm just wasting my time

I'm sick of treading water when this is sinking sand
Trying to keep afloat with concrete for a life raft
And if my days are numbered, I think that you should know
We're children of the fire, and we will always burn

We will always burn
I need you to know

I'm sick of treading water when this is sinking sand
I've tried to keep afloat, I need a helping hand
And if my days are numbered, I just think you should know
We're children of the fire, and we will always burn